how do we met? how does it all started?

erm..well, i still remember clearly, on the first sight of the first day when i met her ;)
it all started with a simple but wonderful gaze of her, when she looked me in the eye and innocently said to me, "hiii..." ......

before i met her, i was never ever imagine myself falling in love. instead, i don't believe in love. and to tell you the truth, i also hate girls before, because i thought that girls are just troubles and nuisances..well, at least before i met her. owh forgot to mention, i also have a sister. hehe :P ..i had this one bestfriend who i always hang out with. then one day, one of our friends (a girl, of course) had asked for our help to participate in the traditional dance because they were short of boys to perform with the girls. before that, i had already owe her one because she had helped me with my event before. she was also quite close with my bestfriend. so when she asked for our help, of course we felt like we had to help her. but then i think back again, "dude...dancing?even more, traditional?what the heck?"..haha lol :P ..but what happened had happened. at that time there were only a week before the performance. during the first day me and my bestfriend couldn't come (i don't remember why). so on the second day, on the 10th of February 2009, at 830pm, we came to the practice. at first my intention is just to came, say hi, and maybe i'll just say that i sorry that i can't dance or whatsoever, and even if they asked me to try to follow their practice, i'll just do it like i really can't dance.haha (you know what i mean rite?)

when i step into the practice spot, our friend who had invited us earlier welcomed us first. you see, at that practice spot, which used to be our gym building in our campus, had 2 spot, which each of it were separate by a wall. before that i couldn't see her because she was on the other side of the wall. hehe. so, after our friend earlier greet us, then she started to introduce us to each of our partner. at that time i was like, "what? we have partners?with girls??"..you guys just think about it, i am learning to be friend with girls, but not THAT close.so, i am seriously thinking of getting out. but when my friend introduce me to my partner, at that very time when i was nearly wanted to say that i'm out, she called out her name, and then she lean from the other side of the wall (i can only see her head), she looked me in the eye, and with a smile on her face, and with a "peace" sign on her hand, she said "hii" to me, innocently. it's all happened in just a few seconds, but it felt long enough for me. that's when i first saw her. that's when i wonder many things in my heart, like "who's that girl?" and "how cute she is" and even "is she in my campus? why i didn't see her before?" and so many more :P ..hehe.

from that moment, i just stay and practice without ever thinking "what am i doing?" or whatsoever. it's just that, i just wanna to see her. just for you to know, at that time we had only 5 days to practice. the performance is on 14th. so we practice and practice, and i came the next day, and the next day, and next. during our 2nd last day practice, we'd be informed that we gonna have practice tomorrow morning (sure you know what time guys usually woke up during weekends, rite?) ,we had been asked to do wake-up called, partners by partners. that's the 1st time i got to speak to her after practice. she asked me my no, and i asked hers, and that's how i got her number *peace* :D ..hehe. the 1st message that i received from her is that she asked me of my ym. haha. and the next morning, she called me to wake me up. that's the first call that i got from her ;) ..but then, a few days later, i asked my friend to check her friendster according to her ym id, and that's when i got to know that she had already had a boyfriend. i'm seriously, totally, very badly heartbroken. well, it does have a sayings, "good girls always taken". so i decide to forget her.

on our performance day, we perform at somewhere else outside our campus, and also quite far. we went there by bus. alhamdulillah we did great, at least we think we did. haha :P ..before that, on our way there, my best friend got to sit beside her. she asked me before, and her friends also ask me to sit beside her, but i'm just totally ignoring all of that and just make my way to the back of the bus (what do you expect? of course i was ignoring her!she had a boyfriend!) ..but during our way there, i always go to my bestfriend's sit to have a chitchat with him, but still i sometimes steal a glance towards her couples of time. during our time that day, i don't speak even a word with her. after our performances, we're board the bus, and we're gonna go back to our campus. then, something urged me so much to go and talk to her, or else i won't get the chance to know her anymore. i felt like i couldn't lose her. so i gather up all my courage, i went to her sit, and said "hi"..she just respond "hi" back, well, like everyone else would. and, seriously i lost my word after my first hi. haha. but then luckily she started the whole conversation. she asked whether my makeup have been removed yet, and she gave me the wet tissue to clean up. after that, she invited me to sit besides her, which makes me nervous and tremble so much (that's my 1st time to sit beside a girl, in the bus, and even more, the girl who i had a crush on!). but my mouth just spit out "ok" without me realize it which is totally opposite of my body signs. then, we start to have a small talk, and that's when i got to ask about her boyfriend. i said i'm a little bit disappointed because she didn't mentioned to me about her boyfriend before. then she said sorry, but i said that's okay. at least we can be friends, rite?..but then, she started lean her head towards my shoulder. that's the 1st time ever a girl ever lean back to my shoulder. i still remember it, even until now.

well, after we had came back to campus, we just be friends like normal. and she's quite different from the other girls that i've met. she's like, she is someone else inside, but someone else outside. she always act differently than what her heart and brain asked. like, she's being hypocrite, for a reason. i always looked at her from afar, and she seems like she was totally alone, and live with her loneliness, in her own small world. that's when i felt like i have to do something, and i gotta find out what was wrong with her. i couldn't stand to watch her like that. then, i started to ask around, asking her friends. that's when i got to know that her boyfriend is actually married. meaning that, she coupled with a married person (which also older than her, we could even called him uncle). at that time, it hits me, something told me that i had ot make her smile again, sincere smile that come from her happy heart. and alhamdulillah, after a very, very long struggle that i felt which was very, very challenging, which makes me heartbroken for several times already, until i couldn't feel my heart anymore, alhamdulillah, i manage to make her smile again ;)

on 1st of November 2009, after nearly 10 challenging month, i asked her hand, to share her sadness with me, and for me to share my happiness with her. i don't want to see her tears drop again, and even if she had to cry, i want her to cry on my shoulder. with a tears in her eyes, face down, she just reply with a single nod.

and, that's how it's all started. i started this blog because i wanted to record on how we spend our time loving each other, either together or not. whatever happen, i don't want to forget her, and i want her to know that i love her so much, and only her in my heart. i don't think i could love another girl other than her, and i don't ever think that i could lose her, again!

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH~